Inspiration

In 2013 I decided to move from my native country Denmark, to India. I had met a wonderful woman, Samantha, and she encouraged me to write about my travels to Africa, Australia, and India. In the end, perhaps more than a travel book, it became became a book of Truth, Spirituality, Inner Wisdom, Love and God knows what.
Of course, it's a sort of Autobiography but it is a mirror as well (as everything we encounter in this existence), inviting the reader to see herself or himself in the light of my experiences.

It can be purchased on Amazon as E-book and Paperback. Here are a few links.
Paperback: Amazon.com (Available on other domains too.)
eBook: Amazon.com , Amazon.in (Available on other domains too.)

Some time ago I began learning to become conscious while dreaming at night. I write down my dreams as I have done several times before, but this time with a very strong intention of continuing, so that I can enter deeper into the dreams.
After some weeks I thought 'This is not fruitful, I will never learn it', but still I continued. Then one morning while I was recording yet another dream where I had not been conscious, I remembered another dream from many days ago. 'Holy shit' I said out loud; in this dream I was aware that I was dreaming and I acted according to my own consciousness will in the dream, I have already achieved what I am trying to do.
It is well known that nothing of truth can be repeated so in the next days I didn't 'try' to do it again, I just keep recording my dreams.

Then, on another morning, not too long after, the truth dawned on me. A truth that I already knew, of course, we know all truth, we just have to realize it.
It is not in my sleeping hours which is a dream, it is my 'awake' hours which is a dream. In my sleeping hours my intelligence moves much faster and it has a much vaster reservoir of knowledge to draw on, that's why it's so hard to remember my 'sleeping' hours in my 'awake' hours, because my mind is more dull and covered by the entire set of experiences acquired since I was born.

That set is what we call my 'my self' and my life is about erasing the effects of living while still being in a body, so it has a purpose, a sacred purpose.

No wonder that it turned out empty when I became a scholar.
No wonder that it seemed empty when I became a businessman.
No wonder that it seemed empty when I found out that I lived my life for my kids, parents, husband, wife or someone else, and not for me.
No wonder that The Matrix is such an inspiring movie because it is the truth.
No wonder that Avatar is such an inspiring movie because it shows what we are when we awake from the sleep of living.
No wonder that it seemed empty when I became an artist.
No wonder that it seemed empty when I became the prime minister.
No wonder that it seemed empty when I became successful.
No wonder that the only thing I find full is to Be.

This is not to belittle anything I do in my life. I can do anything as long as I enjoy it. That is the test, I have to enjoy it. To Love and free my being from emotional luggage while doing anything I enjoy, that is my life.
Only now is real.
Any memory, emotion, book or thought is in the past, there is no truth in the past.
If I mourn my dead father I am in the past, dishonouring my Love for my father. Instead I sense the Love for him in my body, then he is with me and we can talk.
True impersonal Love is not a feeling. Love lies just next to truth. Impersonal Love is 'cold' like Truth, unyielding, ruthless. Personal love is trying to get something, some warmth or excitement.

So I dream my days in joyousness but now I am a conscious dreamer, a day-walker, a night-walker, a dream-walker.

I am a dreamer

A friend of mine asked, "Why would you call yourself an Idiot ?" In other words, why use the title, 'Autobiography of an Idiot by a Genius' ?
It's the obvious question, of course.
She has a point. My subconscious could easily pick up, that I believe I am that.
However, I'm centered well enough in my core of truth, love and intelligence.
My motivation for using that title is:

• It is a catchy and relevant title.
• The book is a lot about NOW, but anything outside me is always of the past; it's not me, I always am now. So the title is not me, but it points towards a truth.
• Everyone does something from time to time, which could have been done differently, seen in the rear-view mirror. Fear or worry can make us compromise or act in a way which is actually not true and courageous. You could call this the inner coward, spoiler ... or Idiot. That's how that part of the title came about.
• My father once stood together with his 2nd wife; they met a friend of hers. He said to her about my father, "Where the hell did you find that idiot ?" My father immediately took a liking to the man because now he knew the man was honest and had courage.
  Inspired by my father I realized: I will be no less if I use this title; I know who I am, and if I can help just one other person by showing humility and courage then that's my title.

But why Genius then?

• Behind the wall, door, or veil (depending on how hidden it is) of the Idiot or spoiler, there is the quiet, loving, and always very intelligent part of us, the Genius.
• If we can just learn to Love that one more, or not cover it up in the first place, then it will come alive.